Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
After nearly three weeks it happened, only now I could bring myself to write about it.
Let me continue from my last entry. We went to see Dr Rosy on Friday (23rd of May 2014) after Jumaah prayer. We were prepared with whatever news doctor gave us. And, after the ultrasound, it is confirmed that our baby is not breathing, his heart stopped beating at 8 weeks 6days, meaning, his heart stopped beating after 4 days we heard it loud and clear. Doc Rosy gave me two options, whether to carry out D&C (EPROC) or to take tablets and wait for the baby to come out on its own.
I googled about DnC and most people did that which I do not prefer. I prefer natural discharge so we opted for tablets. Doc wanted me to take the tablets starting on Friday 6pm - yet my husband is leaving to Kuantan (He went offshore T_T) on Sunday, so I started the tablet on Sunday 12pm. The name of the pill given is
I need to eat this pill every 6hours. On Sunday at 12pm I started taking the pill, and the pain and stomach cramp started at 2pm. After eating, the whole drama started : I was sweating (cold sweat), stomach cramp as I would feel if my period didn't come for 2 or 3 months, and I didnt know what to do. I just laid down covered by my duvet and held on for quite some time. Once I started to feel the blood coming out... then everything was fine. [I was imagining the pain to be unbearable as people told me, but it was not like that]. The pain is just like period pain. On Sunday night, blood clot started to come out, then on Tuesday the whole thing came out. I felt something came out while I was about to have lunch.... and something did come out. I put the whole thing in a plastic bag and luckily I made an appointment with Doc Rosy that afternoon. After ultrasound, Doc Rosy told me that everything was okay :) My baby had come out :( completely so that I do not have to do DnC. I was sooooooo relieved. The nurses who wait at the counter were puzzled to see me on Tuesday as I came on Friday. When I told them, they gave me comforting words which motivates me. Doc gave me antibiotic that I need to finish in 5 days, and I'm on folic acid for 3 months. Hopefully Allah grants us with better rizk. Allah knows whats best, hoping for healthier child in my next pregnancy. Dealing with this whole rollercoaster emotion is hard without him around, communication is limited. But Alhamdulillah with the support from my family, my in laws and of course my husband, insya allah we survived.
Allah knows whats best :)
hopefully whoever reads this entry will get useful info as I did when I googled information regarding this. Am working already but still needs to take care of my health and myself.
I will continue my entry later, for now.... Bismillahi tawakkal tu'alallah~
Mama Papa love u baby~ (My dad buried my baby at the front of our house)
